2nd entry tonight... but i had to post it.

another thing that i've been thinking about is my feelings. the way i feel about people around me. my friend and steph asked me quite a nice question the other day, "has anyone ever freaked out though?" when i told them that i was scared of freaking people out by letting them know how much i care. sometimes i feel like there is so much love inside of me and it's about to blow me up soon because i can't keep it all to myself anymore.

i feel like randomly telling people around me that i love them and how much they mean to me. i hate how i always seem to pull back most of the time though. because dad's death taught me such a nice lesson. it taught me to always let people know how i feel because i might not get another chance. and at this point.. i would rather have someone freak out cause of how i feel, than not know how i really feel about them. tomorrow might be too late.. and i really don't want to regret not telling them.

this is one of the things i've been working on lately. i want to change the way i deal with how i feel. and i've started to.

there's another thing that also got me thinking. i was thinking of how carly went all the way to another province to hang out with meaghann. it made me think about my own trip. if she can go that far, i surely can drive for two hours to hang out with her and megan. i'm not sure how they feel about me, but they mean a lot to me. i hope one day they'll believe me about that.

ps: mine and steph's anniversary was yesterday. 23 months. i love her for everything she's done. but i love her even more for being who she is. she really is the closest to perfect i'll ever get to.

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